no one cares

seriously im starting to believe that no one cares about me
no one bothers

imperfections

yes i do have imperfections
i hate my imperfections
i complain about my imperfections and that makes me feel worse
but i couldn't help it
however, it turns people off but i still couldn't help complaining about it
i hate it that people like my friends more than me
i hate it that people fall for far inferior girls but not me
i hate it that people prefer others but not me
i hate it that people want to know my friends more than they want to know me as i know i am friendlier compared with my friends
whats wrong with me
why am i so insecure
why do i lack confidence to believe in myself
why must i always make the first move
maybe i should just stop being the first person to initiate everything
but i hate waiting for others to muster up their courage
sometimes, i feel so alone, so unwanted even though i try so hard to be nice and friendly
it's as if no matter how much i try to be friendly, people would still prefer some unfriendly person over me
whats wrong with me?
am i ugly? no...
am i boring? hell no...
then what?
obnoxious? i don't think so...
...

Is it wrong to still want him?

Is it wrong to still have feelings for that particular someone though u know that it's already over a LONG time ago?

It hurts yet you can't help but to want to see, know, care about that person.

Even though you know he already found a new someone in his life, you still want him.

Is it wrong?